I don't know where to start with this post, but I do know that right now I'm in a good place. For quite a while now, I've been struggling with where I am, who I am and what I want. I always have goals that I am working towards but recently I felt I was getting further away from these goals. So I thought, the best way for me to sort 'this' or 'me' all out, was to make a change. Something has to change, something has to give, I can't continue doing what I'm doing for any longer.
So, a few weeks back after a lot of consideration, taking to others for advice and thinking for myself, I made the decision to change my university course, and the university (more to come on this) and to do what is best for me.
It was a not an easy choice. I was constantly thinking "oh no I'll be loosing friends, my freedom and independence of living away by the beach" which, don't get me wrong, I love but my education that I'm paying is not right, I'm just getting anywhere with this uni course. A bigger part of my mind was telling me "you have to do what you want to do, what is best for my future and if they are friends they will understand and keep in contact".
But that doesn't matter now. I realised yesterday that the decision I had made was the best, and I am excited for what this new chapter of my life has to offer, and I am determined to work my ass of to get what I want.
And I realised that this is my life, I am in control of it, I determine what happens and what I achieve from now on. I am not going to let anyone get in my way or stop me from what I want to get out of life.
M.
P.s. Sorry for the ramble, its late at night and I'm feeling groggy after anaesthetic from the dentist, but hey this is life. My life.
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